Well, I'm back to school tomorrow, and that means I will have to juggle exams, Grease rehearsals and my training all at once. I'm not looking forward to having to do this balancing act, but it is something I cannot afford not to do.
Thinking about the challenge has lead to more then a few sleepless nights. Next week I will be doing the assemblies (if all goes to plan) and that is just the tip of the iceberg. My training may be doubled when I get back, maybe even tripled. I'm not sure yet as my coach is going to be giving me a time table for my training, hopefully it'll be easier to understand then the revision for maths has been; but I can't expect miracles.
It's dawning on me now, just how big this challenge is. I mean, I always knew it was a mountain, but nobody told me it was a whole mountain range. A few people have had suggestions about making it easier 'why don't you have sharks chasing you?' Well, seeing as I already have my coach doing that, and all the people who know about the challenge doing that, I think sharks would be a break, if I'm honest.
I love the support I have been getting, however, the expectations of these people are unbelievable. At the moment they strongly believe I can do this more then I believe. They believe in me, and that is really difficult sometimes, because I am terrified of letting them down. I am terrified of letting Comic Relief down. I am terrified because this is so hard! But I must soldier on with a smile on my face, because if I let myself be negative for too long, I may turn into a wailing wreck, drowning in my tears of negativity, and seeing I an drowning in a pool any way, that would certainly be counterproductive.